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Re: American Anger
« Reply #15 on: May 12, 2018, 11:14:16 AM »
I understand and appreciate your graph haha!

I’ve done some crappy attempts at a one line story for the link Antelope posted but nothing I want to submit yet.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #16 on: May 15, 2018, 09:06:32 AM »
Great to see you all yesterday, even if we were just wandering around in the dark watching different videos.

I didn't manage to write much despite all the interesting material I observed. Here's what I did manage:

Writer’s Block

Pain
Pain
Pain
And anguish

Stop
But can’t
Start

To start might stop
But to start
I cannot

Writer's block


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Re: American Anger
« Reply #17 on: May 16, 2018, 07:04:07 AM »
Yay! You wrote something and beat the graph of infinite doom!

I also found it hard to think of anything much. I was very tired and having them all play at once was confusing and hard to follow. I have no idea what she was saying half of the time. Maybe that was the point, though.
I suppose it could help re-watching the videos?
I found them all here: https://www.julianrosefeldt.com/film-and-video-works/manifesto-_2014-2015/

It makes me want to make a video, rather than write something, actually.

All I can say is that I found the garbage plant and scientist ones to be anxiety inducing, so devoid of nature and akin to some horrible industrial prison for the mind. The stock market was quite similar.

On the other hand, the homeless man one was quite appealing for its visions of the opposite, where all that once was industry had fallen, and on its way to becoming reclaimed by nature.

I thought the funeral speaker bit was hilarious, the classroom had useful advice, and the puppeteer seemed warm and comforting somehow.

I'm still trying to figure out the random baboon.
« Last Edit: May 16, 2018, 07:08:47 AM by Agent24 »
"Our imagination spans that infinite moment, between the asterisk and the ampersand."

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #18 on: May 16, 2018, 06:48:20 PM »
I understand that graph way too much... I'll tell you my procrastination to avoidance story. Last week I posted here, but my browser froze and ate the post, and I was too depressed to post again for a while. It's not much of a story, but that's my flakines in microcosm.   

So, that post included the last poem I wrote... Here it is. 

Two antidepressants and an antihistamine
The antihistamine doesn’t work - I’ll have to go back to the other kind
These keep me normal

Two decongestants, magnesium, and zinc
zinc for my gut, magnesium for the aches

A row of pills next to a mug of tea
When I am straight, there are half as many pills.   

His days shall be one hundred and twenty years
What else lasts that long?
Nothing of such complexity as us
Each injury is permanent, for we never forget
Leave the past behind, but never forget
Your memories are who you are, but don’t live in the past
It’s an ugly contradiction
We’re all trapped in the past, for our bodies are our past
Delicate things that scar and callous with every slight
Pills for bad memories, pills for bad chemicals 

I knew a girl who asked friends and strangers for spare citalopram
I know a guy who ruined his knee just by working his whole life.
   


My goal are to enter that competition that Rata posted a few weeks ago as many times as I can afford. They're are having some real troubles with their payment systems though.   

And speaking of competitions, my dad sent me this the other day... https://literarytaxidermy.com/contest.html. Sounds like you guys' type of thing.   

And wasn't Manifesto good! I am working on something inspired by Worker in a garbage incineration plant I feel an affinity for that extremely unglamorous life, and I think society's waste is a great symbol for all the ways that we can fail.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #19 on: May 16, 2018, 07:10:51 PM »
Also, if you thought the scientist was anxiety inducing, do you know what's going on in that one? That's am anechoic chamber. It absorbs all sound when you are inside it. The one in America is the quietest place in the world, and the longest anyone's lasted inside it is 45 minutes, because the lack of noise causes extreme anxiety. They use it to train astronauts for the disorienting quiet of space.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #20 on: May 17, 2018, 11:30:32 AM »
Hi!

So nice to read your reflections. I agree Agent24, it is quite overwhelming! I found it easier to follow the second time.

Thank you for posting the videos, so we can watch them again. I'm little bit obsessed with the 'conservative wife' one, and I want to write a response poem to it. I shall post it once I've written it.

Some many interesting and intriguing elements. Some of the images that have been bouncing around in my mind are:
the crow nibbling the taxidermy bear's nostril
the claw in the the garbage one
the astonishing (and yes anxiety inducing) architecture in the scientist one

What sort of film would you make Agent24?

And thank you for sharing your poem TSA1984. I especially like the last two lines. They are like a chorus somehow. I'm so glad to hear you are entering that competition!

And and thank you for your poem Serena! It gives me the sense of physical writer's blocks (like bricks or something) being stacked on top of each other.


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Re: American Anger
« Reply #21 on: May 18, 2018, 08:42:25 PM »
I can't think.

I can't think, to write a poem.
there is too much in the way;
rubble of broken sentences,
jumbled up thoughts.

Everything here is overlaid echoes,
that bounce off each other.
Fatigue scrapes against my eyeballs.
Mind and heart itch wearily.

I can't think.
my brain is lying on the floor.
Like a surgeon who worked
for fourteen hours straight.
"Our imagination spans that infinite moment, between the asterisk and the ampersand."

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #22 on: May 18, 2018, 09:30:24 PM »
Haven't done any writing for a few days..

But I'm off to the Auckland Writers Festival tomorrow so hopefully it will inspire. Maybe I'll see some of you there!

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #23 on: May 19, 2018, 08:29:33 AM »
Anechoic Chamber

I've seen those isolation tanks
on TV,
where you float
on an oversaturated salt pool,
in darkness,
in silence,
in warmth.
a place to meditate,
a drug-free hallucination.
It sounds interesting,
a simulation of the womb?
I've never tried it.

in similarity,
an anechoic chamber
seems somehow
like an introvert's dream,
a place to hide from everyone-
including yourself.

I've never been in one either,
would it be how I imagine,
Or akin to some kind of limbo?
walls absorbing even the sound
of your breathing,
a tomb-like silence
where your thoughts have
free reign across
your pitted mind?

I don't know,
But I'd still like to try it out.

perhaps it wouldn't be
the relaxing oasis
I'm imagining.
perhaps shutting out the world
isn't the answer.

But perhaps it'd be
the perfect place
to put a certain
orange crested buffoon.



It's nice to know others can relate to my graph! I've been procrastinating so hard I've turned full circle and ended up working on old circuit board layouts I've forgotten about for years, just to avoid doing anything else. Haha.

Perhaps I just have to set myself a task that's even more daunting than writing a novel or collecting my poetry, so that I'll end up doing those things instead.  :P

The taxidermy scene in the housewife video gave me a sort of David Lynch vibe, now I think about it again.
"Our imagination spans that infinite moment, between the asterisk and the ampersand."

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #24 on: May 19, 2018, 08:35:31 AM »
To start might stop
But to start
I cannot

Writer's block
I really like the rhythm in this part, I think if the whole poem followed the same rhythm it would be even better than it already is.
I can definitely imagine a stonemason laying down bricks to the same rhythm.
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Re: American Anger
« Reply #25 on: May 21, 2018, 06:50:36 PM »
Thanks for the feedback.

I’ve decided this week I will spend 30 mins each day staring at a blank page. If something happens that’s great but if nothing does it’s fine too. I’m hoping this will help me be comfortable with blank pages again so I stop running away every time.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #26 on: May 22, 2018, 08:12:38 AM »
You have invented a new treatment, blank page exposure therapy for writer's block  :P
Hope it works  :D

Regarding feedback, it's just my opinion of course, and it's your work so always follow what you think is best, obviously.

I must admit I never made it to the festival :( I hope you had fun though?
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Re: American Anger
« Reply #27 on: May 23, 2018, 04:04:31 PM »
Yeah the writers festival was good, not as good as previous years imo but there were a few things I found worthwhile.

Well yesterday I managed to find very important housework to do every time I was going to write. But I just did my 30 mins for today and really enjoyed how it took the pressure off. Wrote the bones of a poem. I think once I actually open the Word doc its much easier to sit there for half an hour and let things flow out than if I tell myself I have to write x amount.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #28 on: May 24, 2018, 01:56:25 PM »
Stared at a page for 30 mins today, it feels like such a long time. wrote 8 lines.

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Re: American Anger
« Reply #29 on: May 26, 2018, 11:34:54 AM »
Did my 30 mins of mostly staring. Wrote this..

I don’t feel like chocolate at the moment
I don’t feel like anything
I hate when Word tells me to use more concise language
like it’s a mistake to use words how you want
and let them express what they want on a page

it underlines in red the word mistake
like even a mistake is a mistake
poetry is anything that burns
and paper burns well
but words burn longer